i got a new layout up if you haven't already seen. its FELINE VERSION 6 - URBAN STEEZ click here to see it. give me some love on my guestbook on the way out.

recently>// if you havent already hurd or seen. i've been going through the toughest time of my life. i have never ever felt so empty and lonely. but i'd like to thank my homegirls especially my girl anita! cuz she rocked with me the whole way. but yeah... if you wanna know. its the big boyfriend problems. and our status right now is good actually. email me or specially ask me on my email. or holla at me if you want the juice. cuz haha- i got a script i can just cut and paste! but i don't really wanna spill my too personal life on the net.

damn right >// i got a new layout up. like the theme? "my milkshake brings all tha guys to tha yard... and they're like it's betta than yours... damn right, its betta than yours... i could teach you... but i'd have to charge." that mo'fuckin song was stuck in my head way too long and i had to release it through a layout. ha-ha. its cute tho, all candy colored.

i forgot to blog >//about my night at knott's. last day of knotts scarry farm was this saturday, and rachael, jernel, christian and i went. honestly i was pretty much irritated most of the time and i popped on christian. sorry boo. ;( i guess thats why i didn't really have the excitement in me enough to blog. but it was fun. i liked the mazes but i wished i went on more. cuz now i have to wait till next year. blah.

yesterday >// christian picked me up after practice. he was all excited cuz he got that job he wanted at envoy a telemarketing thing. we went the day before to go to christian's interview. damn, there's a lot of teenagers. the clerk was even like 19. crazy, maybe i should work there. starting dolla' is actually 8 bucks per, so thats pretty good.

so we got ready, and went to Lahaina to go grubb. yummy! it was so damn bomb. went home and then watched The OC its soo fun watching it with him cuz we swear like its a movie or something. were all talkin to the characters like "no! don't take it!" "oh shit oh shit they kissed! aahahahahahhaaaaa!!" "foo, yer so ugly, you need to step back away from homegirl!" haha. i wonder what school they filmed it in. i wonder. .. hmm.

YO GUESS WHUT i got a new layout up in my personal site. check it out, leave me some love. - feline.toxic-beauty.net.

HEROIC COUPLET assignment. oh-baby.

Complicated World

Outside I may portray someone sweet, kind.
a fool you are if you stare from behind.
My actions are decieving; don't judge me.
don't hate me if real isn't what you see.
Going through mazes in life paralyze
I move to His answer, His love divine.
Even companions can play me with tricks
Trust, it hurts more than a rose'e prick.
Give and I give my love and my concern.
It's a shame that they don;t give in return.


There is a boy in my life who forgives.
he gave me light and taught me how to live.
he saw from behind but he was not fool.
And he took my faults to use as a stool
to life me up when I was out and down.
Bestowed love upon me with a pure crown.
He, like a bruised sheep in a herd, picked me
and him to live a see-saw life freely.
He is the one i choose to serve
But he understands my complicated world.

TRY and explicate. go, and i'll give you a dollar!

LIKE THE NEW LAYOUT? its simply sweet. i wanted it to look all cut up as if i made it my self and scanned it. (cuz in reality, i refuse to cut up pictures). but i made it as a little something for my boob christian. happy anniversary! the big zero-one. woohoo.

EYE CANDY pictures of chrisaleen.